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Current mood:	shitty
Current music:	Soil & "PIMP" Sessions - Fuller Love

mo' better blues
Guess what?

As usual, I went through a winter of discontent in regards to blogging. I may as well resign myself to the fact that I never blog when it's cold and grey. Even when we have bizarre as heck Christmas snow storms.

Anyway, I'm not doing to well. I've dropped out of school (!), or sort of have, having disenrolled in my college classes, and only attend highschool on a tutorial basis. It might be because my meds have stopped working (!!).

I was dropped from my psychiatric service, so for a while had no therapy, and no medication management. So, now we are starting fresh with a new programme. My new therapist seems incredible, she actually went to college for costume design, and was a milliner in New York (!!!) before she changed lanes and entered the psychiatric health field. I like her.

Still, I'm really depressed. I haven't been "happy" in a number of weeks now, and can barely get myself to move. I don't leave the house, and hate myself and my laziness and my mediocrity more and more each day.

I want to begin sewing again, and I should, seeing as how one of my Christmas gifts was a fabulous new sewing machine, but I can't get to the fabric store no matter how hard I try and plan. In addition to that, I don't even know if I should spend my money on materials, because, as usual craigslist has some stellar deals.

I have a basement now, it's like a post apocalyptic zombie bunker. Our yard has been butchered and looks seriously sad. I'm addicted to /cgl, which is not helpful to my social growth, or my self confidence.

By the way, did I mention my passages is about growing a healthy social network? Yes, only someone as pathetic and alienating as me could possibly have to have a school assignment dedicated to making to friend.

I hate myself.